考试？

这次一年一度的大考，好像变成了一种很恐怖的思维空间。
当你有idea要读什么，进到那个空间，什么都幻泡了。
太恐怖了。

这曾是多少人想要逃避的空间，而我们还是痴痴的，呆呆的，继续怠泄在这里。
当你想要逃跑，想想你的未来，你的家人对你的期望。
太悲剧了。

考试啊？考前考着考后，一律都在提心胆跳。
当你正想放下心头大石时，下一个大考就来了。
太狗血了吧？

虚伪 的 借口

人变得懦弱，是不是一种成长的宿命？
小时候的童言无忌，在哪个角落哪个阶段迷路了？
我们每天都在寻找事情的真相，可是寻到了，又如何？

揭发勇气需要勇气，需要智慧，更需要退路。
越是对外显得光明的路，就越是黑暗。
我们的社会教会我们的是变得懦弱，变得胆小，变得怕事。

就算我知道父亲的婚外情，我会有勇气跟妈妈提起吗？
就算我不喜欢妈妈的男朋友，我会有勇气和妈妈决裂吗？
就算我觉得父母偏心妹妹，我会提起勇气反抗抗议吗？
就算我觉得朋友圈子里被排挤了，我会有勇气离开吗？
就算我有喜欢的人，我会有勇气对他说出我的感受吗？
就算我是不喜欢我读的科系，我会勇敢说出来吗？

懦弱！
胆小！
怕事！
事事起头都是因为一个字，爱。

你爱你的家，所以不忍心破坏了虚伪的和谐。
你爱你妈妈，所以不忍心看到她难过，伤心。
你爱你妹妹，所以觉得忍一忍就都没关系了。
你爱你朋友，所以觉得你偶尔还是被重视的。
你爱那个他，所以不忍让他陷入为难的状况。
你爱那科系，所以憧憬着未来它能带给你的。

借                                                                 口

老死的信

给一直想哭但是哭不出来的你，

女人，辗转间，我们认识了十个年头，每次写感性的话给你都非得要提一下我们到底认识了多久，因为觉得有点不可思议，呃，不是有点，是非常极度的不可思议。我们两个的脾气也好，习性也好，简直就差得天渊之别啊，不知道为什么，这么多年来，就真的只有你一个坚持了那么久的一段友谊。总觉得，我们之间称为友谊太浪费了，如果家人排行第一，友情第二，那我们肯定排在1.25的位置。比不上家人的血缘关系，但是和家人并重了。

我家发生什么事，都是第一个通知你；你家发生什么事，我可能不是第一个知道，但是却是你朋友圈里头唯一知道的几个，有些则是可能的唯一。在我生命里，如果这些年都没有你，我还真难想象，我是怎么撑过来的。从离开了最熟悉的你们，去到完全没有认识人的中学，直到在学记遇回，依琳离开，我爸离开，直到今天。你想想，每一件事，如果杨慧娴的生活里少了许嘉殷，那她要哭的时候，要躲在被子里哭多久？她想狂笑的时候，谁会陪着她大笑得像疯子？她觉得委屈时，谁会陪着她大骂那些人的白痴？她闷着想讲话的时候，有谁能够陪着她听她碎碎念的一个字一句话慢慢咀嚼完？还真的像大雄没了小叮当。

当我们身边的人慢慢地离开了我们的生活，慢慢的离开了我们的生命，你有没有想过，其实现在拥有的就是我们梦寐以求的呢？可能你还没发觉到，可是有时候我真的觉得，你的家，一直是你想要的，只是你从小到大的压抑着你自己的感觉，你已经失去了表达爱的能力。你很爱你爸，要不然，怎会听到他的预言就觉得想哭？你很爱你妈，要不然，你怎会想尽办法把她从那件事上拉回来？你很爱你妹，要不然，怎会出门都会想到帮她买东西？你很爱你家，你不想它就这样散了，所以你忍声吞气，把所有委屈都往自己肚子里吞。可是你有没有想过，我看了这么久，我也会替你觉得难过，替你觉得委屈，替你觉得不值。

有的时候，让情绪奔放未免是件坏事。你是人类，不是机器人，会哭会闹会笑会烦，这才是你。你只有二十岁，你以为你是八十岁老头，看透世间红尘吗？抱歉，你还未够格。哭，并不是弱者的表现，只是人类表达情感的一种方式，就好像开心时会笑那么简单。我知道对你而言，它并不简单。我走得出来，你何尝不能呢？试试吧，不要再勉强自己回到10年前，做那个懦弱的许嘉殷。

话说，家人说完了，是不是该说一下朋友呢？你的朋友圈，我看十指手指就数的完了吧？咋们都差不多啦。藏起自己在面具背后，让别人看到的永远是最好的自己，最精彩的自己。只是面具下的你不累吗？面具下的你不想要像其他人一样过着普通人的生活？我明白你不想要和别人分享你的故事，老是戴着你的面具，可是，这个社会上，戴面具的人太多了，朋友，是时候脱下面具，让你的脸好好呼吸一下新鲜空气了。

男女之情，我真的不知道该怎么说。我也没有经验，呃，其实我觉得这一块其实需要你放宽胸膛去接受不同的人，不一定第一眼觉得不对的人就不是你寻找的那个他。应该说，就放下自己去认识不同的人。不要老是活在读书和家里，有的时候，参一些活动，跟那些朋友出去（不一定要去联谊啦）走走，不要老是把自己关起来，你那边又不像我这里的沙漠，至少还是有很多树的热带雨林啊。没说每个人都要找身材如魔鬼，脸庞如天使的啊。那种女生不好，不好。试试看嘛，说不定还真的找到个人在我去KB之前让我鉴定？

成绩方面，你比我还会讲啦，根本就不需要我这个军师。有的时候，我反而更需要向你学习放下。我每次都很紧张，一直到把自己逼紧了，转牛角尖去，搞得我家里人都神经兮兮的，结果把自己搞疯了，成绩搞砸了。

我真的觉得，这些年没有许嘉殷，现在的杨慧娴绝对不会是过这现在的生活。可能她已经跳楼死掉了，可能她已经进了神经病院，可能她已经不读大学跑去嫁人了，可能可能很多的可能。但是所有的可能都在许嘉殷那年的出现给断了。现在的杨慧娴好好的活着，读着书，而且在考很重要的科目前，写下了这封信，为的就是让她哭，我好累哦，我要睡觉了。（再不睡觉，这要叫绝笔不是共勉之了。）

共勉之。

想念自己

想念自己

作詞：施人誠
作曲：Paul Oxley、David Neisser、Chazz Traxx
編曲：Terence Teo
製作人：王治平

看著鏡子裡面那陌生的臉
妳深吸口氣 擦乾雙眼
安慰自己說 沒變沒變
不過是今天的妝濃了一些

趁著青春還剩幾年 努力追上城市的光鮮
天黑以後 天亮之前 設法抹去心底那些疲倦

只是夜深人靜 就會想念自己
眼神還那麼清亮純淨的曾經
睡不著的夜裡 多麼想念自己
想要哭就哭吧 笑就笑的任性

慢慢習慣日子過得敷衍
不再追問夢想 到底還離多遠
說服自己 總有一天 會贏回在這裡輸掉的一切

算算青春 還能幾年 茫然徘徊在城市的邊緣
天黑以後 天亮之前 緊緊擁抱僅存的尊嚴

只是夜深人靜 就會想念自己
眼神還那麼清亮純淨的曾經
睡不著的夜裡 多麼想念自己
想要哭就哭吧 笑就笑的任性

還能不能回去
妳好想念 自己出發時不怕天高地厚的勇氣
睡不著的夜裡 孤單想念自己
好希望還可以有首歌能陪妳

這世界 和妳以為的 是這麼不一樣
妳好害怕 終究要變成 和他們一樣

每到夜深人靜 就會想念自己
眼神還那麼清亮純淨的曾經
睡不著的夜裡 多麼想念自己
想要哭就哭吧 笑就笑的任性

還能不能回去
妳好想念 自己出發時不怕天高地厚的勇氣
睡不著的夜裡 孤單想念自己
好希望還可以有首歌能陪妳

還能不能回去
妳好想念自己 從前那個自己

怎樣才能回去
妳好想念自己 那快樂的自己

很直接的开场白，自欺欺人的城市人，光鲜的回到家，看着那陌生的自己，不断的自我安慰着。
｛你深吸口气 擦干双眼 安慰自己说 没变没变｝
真的没变吗？那为什么还得要深吸口气才能告诉自己呢？
骗得了所有的人，那你自己的内心呢？
从朴实到亮丽的背后，到底藏着多少不为人知的秘密，说了是不为人知，那就藏着吧。
因为，没有人能够承受得了，把自己的脸皮用刀子，一刀，两刀，三刀的刮开。

｛趁着年轻还剩几年 努力追上城市的光鲜｝
我们总会抱着 “还年轻” 的心态，追上所有人追赶的潮流，可是抚心自问，那时我们要的吗？
光鲜亮丽的外表下，自己脆弱的灵魂，还撑得了多少时间？这只有你自己有办法回答了。
这些光鲜的外表，万一不小心被人揭穿了，你又有没有办法让自己回到那光鲜的躯壳里？

｛说服自己 总有一天 会赢回在这里输掉的一切｝
输了就是输了，我一向都很认命的。
可是这次，还真矬到了我的要穴，就是相信自己 [会赢回在这里输掉的一切] 。
有多少个人做得到？有多少个人坚持着了？我不懂，可是这应该是很多人的信念。
＊尤其是赌徒在赌桌上，更是牢牢抱紧这个信念＊
坚持不代表就是最后的胜利。

｛天黑以后 天亮之前 紧紧拥抱仅存的尊严｝
只有在风高月圆的夜晚，我们才勇敢的望着自己疲惫的灵魂，告诉自己，再一下，再一天，坚持啊！
那仅存的尊严在哪里？我看不到，也找不到。
太暗了，我，不敢凝视自己，怕撞见妖魔鬼怪。
在为五斗米折腰的同时，尊严，不都掉光了吗？

｛你好想念 自己出发时不怕天高地厚的勇气｝
如果让我乘着时光机，回到过去寻找那年的勇气，我可能也不敢把它带回来。
使用那一丁点多的勇气，是需要250％更多的勇气。
不止是开始做一件事所需的勇气，还有承担后果的勇气，更多的是，抗拒别人目光的勇气。

｛睡不着的夜里 多么想念自己 想要哭就哭吧 笑就笑的任性｝
任性在女孩来说，可能是和男朋友或伴侣撒娇的武器。
但单身的我们，哭笑的任性早就抛诸脑后了。
我哭，是为了博取别人施舍的怜悯；我笑，因为那是紧紧贴在我脸上，撕都撕不下的面具了。
夜深人静的时候，面无表情的我，才是最真实的我。

｛还能不能回去 你好想念自己 从前那个自己｝
回到过去看着那个我，是否天真无邪？是否快乐开心？是否发自内心的大哭狂笑？
我后来才发现，原来我在幼稚园的时候，就已经有隐藏自己的本能了。
只是，没有人发现，我也不好意思把面具拿下来了。
现在的我，已经忘了面具挂在身体那个角落了，只记得这已不是我的嘴脸了。

这么坦白的开场白，总不能草草结尾：
｛怎样才能回去 你好想念自己 那快乐的自己｝
施人诚告诉你，不管你怎样回到过去，你只能想念自己，那曾经快乐的自己。

＃很佩服ELLA，每个人都想尽办法在屏幕前把自己装的光鲜亮丽，只有这个歌坛奇葩，把光鲜亮丽背后的故事掀开来，赤裸裸的摆在所有人面前，告诉你，我就是这样！很符合她人来疯的专辑《你正常吗？》很喜欢她的嗓音，她的直白，她的勇敢。祝福这位大马媳妇，永远发自内心的快乐。S.H.E.加油！＃

?爱？

爱上一个人，是怎么样的感觉？
是时开心，时难过，每天活得好像浮浮沉沉的？
还是，容光焕发的，发自内心大笑？

人人都说，
初恋是酸酸甜甜的，甜甜的腻在一起，酸酸的吃起醋来。
热恋的时候很恶心，改变自己的习性，期望能天长地久。
冷战的时候很冷酷，冷眼旁观着所有一起做过的人事物。
结婚是爱情的坟墓，柴米油盐酱醋茶，每样都翻起来吵。

那为什么要爱呢？
反正到最后，吵了起来，结局就是分开和不解。

爱？忘了。

大龄女子

大齡女子_彭佳慧

作詞：陳宏宇
作曲：蕭煌奇

眼睛彷彿起了霧
也許只是鏡片模糊
除了自己 已經很久沒接觸
另一個人體貼照顧
或那一種交流相處
和愛情 顯得生疏

因為倔強的緣故
錯過緣份遇缺未補
不要束縛 卻又被流年困住
櫃子裡的那一件
最美的衣服
它還在等
能不能被在乎

女人啊
我們都曾經期待 能嫁個好丈夫
愛得一塌糊塗
也不要一個人做主
想像未來可以手牽著手的路
相信緣份的人
好像就不會那麼辛苦

親愛的
我們誰不曾盼望 有ㄧ份好歸宿
能夠直到永遠
幸福啊不會被攔阻
總有一天可以被所有人羨慕
真愛也許
只是遲到一步

因為倔強的緣故
錯過緣份遇缺未補
不要束縛 卻又被流年困住
櫃子裡的那一件
最美的衣服
它還在等 是否有人在乎

親愛的
我們誰不曾盼望 有ㄧ份好歸宿
能夠直到永遠
幸福啊不會被攔阻
總有一天可以被所有人羨慕
真愛也許
只是遲到一步

偏偏寂寞總是難相處
偏偏難過就是捱不住
不知道 為了什麼哭

女人啊
我們都曾經期待 能嫁個好丈夫
愛得一塌糊塗
也不要一個人做主
想像未來可以手牽著手的路
相信緣份的人
好像就不會那麼辛苦

親愛的
我們誰不曾盼望 有ㄧ份好歸宿
能夠直到永遠
幸福啊不會被攔阻
總有一天可以被所有人羨慕
雖然現在 還是一個人住
雖然現在 還是一個人

这首歌，刚出的时候，是因为蓝心湄才会去看MV。
可是，当我慢慢哼起那一句句的歌词，才真的感觉到了:
蓝心湄的歇斯底里，彭佳慧的无奈。

柜子里那件最美的衣服，请问它到时间出柜了吗？
遇见那个对的人，在对的时间，还有对的地点，才是最重要的事情。
我相信在遇见这么天时地利人和的时刻前，总会有一个又一个的阻碍。
只要相信自己，相信幸福回来到，永远绝不会是一个遥远的距离。

幸福也许只是，晚一步来到。

离开了之后

在我们大家的印象里，大学生就是背着大包小包，然后轰轰烈烈的搬进宿舍里头，开始他们的大学生涯。
刚进大学预修的时候，看着朋友们都住在宿舍，有时会很羡慕，有时觉得他们很幸运。
但是住在宿舍的朋友却说，你们能够回家才爽呢。
那时候的我，不太懂他们所谓的“爽”是怎么样的。

现在离开了妈妈，才知道，在家里，什么都有人帮你打理好的那个时候，真的很爽。
重复了几天的宿舍生活，起床上课下课回来冲凉吃饭读书温习睡觉。
日复一日的，开始想念电视机的吵杂声，想念妹妹每次来打搅的烦恼，想念妈妈的碎碎念。
有时想着想着，读书的心境就会改变，看着书桌外的环境，似乎会慢慢的变成我家的庭院。
书本上的文字看着看着，渐渐变得模糊，而始作俑者却是自己的泪水。

手提电脑里播放着的都是以往和家人唱K的金曲。
书本的后方就是与家人多年前一起出游的合照。
杯子里装的都是妈妈一直制止我喝，却不断补货的咖啡。
水壶旁吊着的那个钥匙圈是妹妹和妈妈在我考试期间出游特地买给我的纪念品。
每每看见一件从家里带来的物品，满满都是对家人的思念。
噢，还有桌旁的那盏灯。。。

不知道什么时候开始的，自己开始封闭起来。
除了之前就很好的朋友，其他人似乎都变成会背着自己捅自己一刀的侩子手。
有时候会自己幻想，如果这个朋友背叛我了，那我是不是就是一个人了？
可能是吧。可能不是吧。这件事比摘花瓣还头疼。

宿舍的快乐，永远不比家里的平淡，来得更温暖我心。

你在吗？

在我们心里，总有一个很想去的地方。
差别只是在于我们去的速度，去前的准备，还有想去的原因。
那我的呢？
我想去一个我自己可以主宰自己生命的地方。
一个我不需要听从任何人的地方。
一个别人不必理会我的地方。
一个我谁都不管的地方。
一个我故自我在的地方。

一个，有你的地方。
你是谁？
是我的影子？
还是，我才是你的影子？
我总觉得我们是对方的，最忠实的听众，最老实的朋友。
听众席的安静让人倏然，我们绝对不会。
朋友间的太老实会毁了友谊，我们不会。

我们听得见彼此的声音，但看不见彼此。
我们如果不再需要对方，感觉就像失去了自己。
因为，
心里的那个我，就是你。

心，遗漏在？

｛其实也没什么啦，只是想找个人给我念一念而已。
现在班上剩下我一个华人，他们每次都说印度话，整堆人在笑的时候，我一个木木的，感觉很郁闷（还很蠢）。他们的笑话有时翻译了又不懂笑点在哪里，呵。差不多1个月没跟他们去吃午餐了，觉得自己在班上看下戏还比较舒服一点。
还有我家卖了，现在搬去他家住，就不太习惯，可是又不可以不搬。单单想到每天见面没话说，就很尴尬了。一起吃饭的话，我妈又不断和他说公事，我又变成好像搭桌子的，很奇怪吧？我自己也觉得很奇怪。

不知道是不是太压力了，好容易哭哦。不知道怎么样说，可是就是心里不舒服啦。读书也读不太进，做东西也提不起劲，连吃饭都是因为肚子饿而狼吞虎咽让食物下而已。这种生活是应该改变的，我也知道，可是要从哪里下手？第一次觉得自己的人生好像是为了附属在别人生活而存在的，而当身边的人都抛下我，那我的人生剩什么？我自己也不懂。

看完就去睡觉，要不然你很快又哭了。乖，去读书了。｝

[親愛的們，我最近都很忙沒時間和你們廢話XD
可是最近真的很想家，心情低落
發現來了臺灣那麼久我真的沒有一個真心的朋友，大家都是hi BYe friend 就算室友也一樣
絕對不會在你心情不好的時候安慰你
只會說我哪裡知道你心情不好，不然就是我知道你心情不好啊，我能怎樣
想念你和YoGHa會
在我心情不好時逗我笑
在我衝動時拉我一把
在我難過時陪伴我
在我想說心事時借我耳朵

這裡的朋友是一起出去吃喝玩樂的，卻不是能聽我說心事的
我沒有信任得無條件支持我的人
我真的好難過
我覺得我已經不是以前的愫恬了，我不會真的很開心的開心
總是會。。掩藏着不開心，因為我知道不會有人關心我的心情，不會有人理會我的難過

我不能再天真，可是我的脾氣還是很衝動。。已經惹了不少人了。。。

大家一定覺得我脾氣很壞雖然是事實。。]

｛宝贝，到外头去才发现自己想家，是正常的。
心情要调整回来才能好好念书哦。
我明白，身边没有人听你说话，让你放松是很辛苦的，可是你想想，这是一个挑战。
当你出到社会来，有了这样的经验，有什么事情是你不能面对的呢？
吃喝玩乐的朋友是不能少，也不会少的。
可是，你想想，你还有我们啊，有什么事我们都会陪着你的，放心，是无限期的。

心情不好，你说，我们讲笑话给你听
冲动了，你说，想想我们的话，话语也可以拉你一把（当然要自己学一学控制）
难过不开心，你说，我们隔了大海洋也会陪你哭
想说心事时，你说，录下来send过来，我们等你回来再听一次（你一定会笑死的）

掩饰，是最好的面具，我知道，因为我也会不断地掩饰，不让人知道我的真心
甚至连我妈都不太看得懂我的脸色了
信任，是从自己开始的，先相信自己，才能让其他人相信你，服从你，甚至于信服你
天真是你的trademark，不需要为了谁而改掉
上天给你的，是任何人都抢不走的
记得你去台湾的时候，我在blog写给你的那些话吗？
看回去，你会发现，你想要隐藏的，正是我所羡慕的
开心时就大笑，难过时就大哭，不用为了谁而隐藏你的喜怒哀乐
因为你是独一无二的许愫恬，我们最疼爱的阿恬

脾气不好又怎样？那是你的
样子不好又怎样？那是你的
天真傻傻又怎样？那还是你的
加油，爱你哟｝

最近和很要好的朋友都面对了一些比较负面的情绪，我们开始看懂了自己在身边朋友的位置，开始慢慢地明白到自己存在的位置，也能了解到那个位置的谜底。
为什么就是没有办法不去面对那些不愿意也不需要面对的？
可能很多人会说，不需要管别人的眼光和想法，做自己最重要。
可是，很不幸的，人类就是活在人类的眼睛里。
而且，自己还会比别人更注重他人的眼光。
别人看我，是两只眼睛看两只眼睛；我看别人，是两只眼睛看很多只眼睛。
压力，渐渐的，慢慢的，不知不觉的就融入了我们的生命。

当我们有这些很不舒服的瞬间，通常都会往身边的家人朋友靠着。
可惜，太过成熟的我们，并不懂得什么是依赖，只知道我们不可以拖累甚至附累身边任何一个人。
我们只能默默地承受，直到那一个频临点，频临爆炸的点。
如若真的爆炸了，我们也只会想到会不会伤害到身边的人，而不是关心自己身上的伤痕累累。
我们也太愚蠢了吧？

没关系的，身边都是我们关心的人，那谁来关心我们？

#40

#40

The people that are quick to walk away are the ones who never intended to stay.

People who wanted to stay in your life will always find a way.
People who walk fast but remain at your side is the one who intended to stay.
So, people who walk quick away from your life, ignore them.

People who are not intended to stay, why cares about them?
Just simply take them as a passer-by.
They are nothing besides an unknown coming and going like a swirl.
Thus, IGNORE them like you ignore the wind.

#39

#39

Stars can't shine without darkness.

Most of the people are worry and scare of dark.
But still they love stars, maybe because of it's light.
Without the dark, there will be no light for the stars.
And stars couldn't be the favourable one.
Then why afraid of dark?

When a person is in despair, they could not see a light.
But somehow, they themselves shine more than a light.
Thanks to the dark for shining us.

#38

#38

Don't worry about walking a mile in my shoes, just try a day thinking in my head.

People always say that walk in people's shoes, but sometimes you can only feel the physical part.
How about the mental and emotional parts, especially for sensitive girls?
They might think too much, to you, but what they think is because of the one they really cares.

What I thought was, being a human is not easy.
We have to think for this, for that, for him, for her, for almost every perspectives.
Brain is only one, and small.
Neurons are unrepairable, and remain as the number as they are.
When someone is thinking about you, appreciate.

#37

#37

People only rain on your parade because they're jealous of your sun & tired of their shade.

When people walk together with me, I actually never thought of this.
But now, aware of everyone who walk with you.
When they wanted something from you, let's see, they will walk very near to you.
However, when they got the thing they wanted, they might still in the parade, but pretty far distance from you.

You might be curious, why can't they walk on their own parade?
That could be a choice, but to start a parade, they might need time and energy to do it.
Why don't they just simply come to your parade and you will give them what they want?
It's much more easier and save energy.

So, walk with someone who you won't regret on.
Even though they took things away from you.

#36

#36

Every sunset gives us one day less to live. But every sunrise gives us one more day to HOPE.

To me, sunrise and sunset, both are my hopes.
If there is no sunrise, then I would never realize so much of ugliness surrounding me.
If there is no sunset, then I would never have time to tidy up my mind.

Most people use sunrise as light of their life.
I do agree, but just partially.
Sunrise is half of a day, where sunset is just a while and dark will conquer.
When you look at the sunrise, it means your routine starts every and single day.
When you start your daily routine, you will realize so much of your hopes are diminished.
Sunset is something dim, and it's my favourite.
When you look at the sunset, it means a day is going to end.
That's the time where i made up my mind to hope for something better for tomorrow.
When you hope for something better, your mind automaticlly can have a clearer picture of everything.

＃35

#35

Don't wait for the perfect moment, take the moment and make it perfect.

Everyone wants something perfect in their life.
But even we ourselves are not perfect, how do we expect something perfect sitting in our life and waiting for us?
Somehow, we need to really make something which a little bit more to complete it's perfection.
Anyway, don't always wait for the God to give you something.
The God might give you a thing part by part, try combine them and you will get a brand new perfect one.

#34

#34

"Count your age by friends, not years. Count your life by miles, not tears." ~John Lennon

As our age increases, usually we lot friends.
This is because we can't take everything at one time.
No one can always be there for you besides your family and true friends.
You might ask, how to differentiate between true friends and hi-bye friends?
Easiest task ever, true friends are someone who you show your true personalities all the time be with them.
Do you have one? Love 'em.

Life is not tears-dependent stuff, somehow, tears are like one of the main ingredient of this dish.
There is not life without tears, but there is life before and after tears.
Don't forget that our life have ingredient other than tears.
Laughter is the best medicine for tears.
Try going out and explore more about your life.
You might find out something else where you think is more importat than your tears.

＃33

#33

Be who you are and say what you feel because these who matter don't mind, and those that mind, don't matter. ~Dr. Seuss

Back to the topic be yourself again.
No matter how many time people keep on repeating the same thing, there are still people forgetting.
It's not the matter of forgetting, it's the matter of loving yourself.
If you do not love and care about yourself, how others are going to love you?

People who don't even mind or care about you, whatever yo do, to them, are freaking useless. 
Therefore, do something which you think is worth, and do for the person you think it's worth to be.

#30

#30

Never expect. Never assume. Never ask. Never demand. Just let it be. If it's meant to be, it will happen.

Life is something unexpected.
If something is going to happen, we have no rights to stop it.
Even though I don't believe in God, but still I believe trully that things happen because of fate.
Fate is something unpredictable.
If this is your fate, then it will be yours always.
Even though I believe in human can change thier life by hard works, but still fate is there.

Things can't happen without a proper reason, it might be a small thing around us.
Unfortunately, we didn't notice it.
That's why we keep on blaming this and that on something which is happened.
But, it is USELESS!
Somehow, it makes your feeling better, maybe.
Still, after blaming, face it!

Things happened is an obstacle to us.
Just like a bump on the road.
Step on the oil paddle and the bump is over.

＃29

#29

I care too much, that's how I get hurt.

When people tell you that they are hurt because of you, please appreciate this stupid.
People only get hurt by someone else who is important for them.
Or else, they can just ignore and walk away.

I care for you, I wish the best for you, I hope to make you proud.
That's why I am so damn hardworking.
Why do you want to spoil my trust on you?
Why do you want to spit at my hard works?
Why do you want to show others that I'm not good enough for you to be proud?
Am I that bad? Worse? Or worst in your heart?

Fine, I understood from your actions.
I just don't have the courage to move on to life without you.

#32

#32

All we needed were some good friends and a song to sing along.

Friends are always someone else very important other than family.
Sometimes, we need some help but not from family (especially family problems), friends are there for you.
I have a super duperly best friend, if someday she betrayed me, I think I will never believe in friendship anymore.
She is the one who cry with me when I have problem in family.
She is the one who scream for me when I got good results.
She is the one who eat with me when I am alone.
She is the one who get excited when I have a crush.
She is the one who hit me up when I lose my courage.
She is the one who I really can tell her everything.
Yet, she knows everything about me.

Nowadays, I keep on having complications with my mum.
She is only one know everything, every words, and every thoughts of mine.
I have no idea if someday she is not there for me.
I might get collapse easily, or immediately.
Erm... Anyway, please don't make her sing.
I do not wish to torture everyone's ears, still I am going to karaoke with her tonight! SING ALONG!

#31

#31

No matter what you think or see, there's always something more to a person. Always something you don't know about them. Everyone has their secrets and insecurities. It's sad that others are just careless and don't consider how other people feel. It's sad how someone has to emotionally collapse for people to notice them.

Things come and go. Everyone has something to be sad of, happy of, excited of...
To me, happiness is something you can't see but you can feel.
Sadness is something you feel before you see it.
So if you feel someone around you is sad from your feeling, hug them.
A hug is just enough for them.

Emotionally collapse is somehow more severe than physically collapse.
Sometimes, a word is the weapon to collapse a person because they are too weak.
They have no strength at all, they only can feel themselves.
However, with some cruel word, they don't even can feel themselves.
Crying non-stop is the most significant symptom for pre-emotionally collapse.
Try to comfort them to stop crying by themselves but not controlling the tears.
Controlling and hiding the tears is another way in commit suiciding emotionally.
Cry it out until things are settle? It's just a way to make yourself blind.
Cry it out until you can stop that. I know it's hard.

Bad feelings are always hard.
That's why they are always unforgetable.

#28

#28

If the world ends this year, I've wasted my entire life in school. Wonderful.

If Maryas is real, if the world is ending this year, if and only if.
Time in school is really fun, the thing is, when the irritated one irritates you, you feel bad.
What makes you feel irritated? Homeworks? Teachers? Friends?
Somehow, after my graduation, I miss everything in school.
You can't meet friends like that in college who scream at you from the fourth floor.
You can't meet teachers like that in college who scold you like you are their child.
You can't have homeworks like that in college where you can always pleased you teacher to postpone the due.

Everything was so fine in school.
WAS.
Yes, it's a WAS.
These fine memories will always be with me.

But, if world end this year, please let me know the date.
I'M NOT GOING TO STUDY FOR MY COLLEGE YEAR!

Just don't tell me it's 31st of February. I'm gonna knock you away.

＃27

#27

I'm not as strong & happy as I appear to be.
I'm a mess.

Not everyone can be happy and strong all the time.
Maybe someone, but not me.
Do you think that I can still be strong when the most important person of mine appears to show her concern to outsiders which is more than the one to me?
And you're telling me that I'm the most important part of your life?
You made me felt betrayal and cheated, I'm serious.

If you really love someone, you will never leave them alone on the bed where you bring your blanket to sleep with another one.
If your love open up her eyes and saw no one, and heard something else from oopsite room, what is her feeling?
Or open up the door and saw you sleeping in another guy hand?

Don't think this is a small matter, it hurts.
It is just feeling like a knife tabbing into the heart once and again.

Ya, I'm such a mess. And I'm not strong. Yet, not happy.

#26

#26

Truth is, everyone is going to hurt you, you just have to find the ones worth suffering for. ~Bob Marley

Truth is always that suffering. Everyone is hurting you, and you will be hurting people too.
However, suffered for someone is sometimes worth for it.
To find someone to suffered for, they must be worthy to you.
Somehow, that someone might be worthy on it's view.
Those people will make you suffer internally more than the suffering you can feel.

Thus, find someone who is really worth suffering for.

因果循环，你被人伤害得片体鳞伤的同时，你也是在伤害着为你片体鳞伤的人。  

#25

#25

There are only two times in life, NOW and TOO LATE.

Time is a very important aspect and everyone agrees.
Now is a present tense, TOO LATE is a past tense.
We can take NOW to do something and TOO LATE to regret on something else.
But, how many of us can really take NOW as appreciation?
And how many of us will not regret when it is TOO LATE?

现在有点颠倒了，人们都会珍惜所失去的，不是所拥有的。
太迟了？反正要失去过才懂得更加珍惜，多迟都不算迟。

#24

#24

God made us best friends because He knew our mom couldn't handle us as sisters.

TRUE!
If my mom has both me and KJY as daughters, she will easily get stroke or myocardial infarction.
But somehow, we are almost another daughter of our moms.
Sometimes you are jealous of my mum, I do too.
Not everything can be perfect, even mothers.
Anyway, having different type of mother increases our talks too.

Huh? Don't agree with us?
Then LEAVE!
We are always together, as one.

#23

#23

When you start to wonder whether you can trust someone or not, that is when you already know you don't.

There is a Chinese idiom telling, "Use the person you trust, never use the person you don't trust."
Frankly speaking, TRUST is something which can be break by a second but build up by years.
A person lost their trust by just one act.
Will you ask someone who stole money before to take care of your goods?
Obviously not, and you will automatically move yourself away from the person.
That is way of showing the person has lost their trust to you.

信用，固然不是一天就能建成的，但也不可以有任何一点闪失。
一点点的闪失，就代表你，失去了别人对你100％的信任。
就算只是少了0.01％的信任，其余99.99％的流失度是你意想不到的。

#22

#22

I honestly love it when somebody sees me, screams my name and then runs to hug me.

When somebody do this to you, you will feel the greatness of being appreciated.
People who really love you, only they will do that.
By the way, I do have a dummy friend will do this.
Whenever we are leaving college earlier than her, she will start her Goodbye hum.

"Bye bye, see you, love you, muaks muaks."

It seems stupid and childish, but this is the best way of expressing your love.
No doubts, ya?
We actually feel this is so disgusting to tell in front of everyone.
Because of the love in our freindship, we did that for a year.
And now she left us to study abroad, still, we are using her Goodbye hum.

OK, fine, I am childish and stupid now.
Somehow, Gha feel my love and KST love is together with us.
<3 <3 <3

#21

#21

For my best friend;

When I get married, she'll be my maid of honor. When I have a baby, she'll be the Godmother. And when I die, my grave will be right next to hers. The girl is more than my best friend; she's my other half. <3

To have a very best friend like this is something touching.
I do have two, but the one always be next to me is her.
Not only my maid of honor, Godmother to my child and neighbour of my grave, I think she'll be my best partner of crime ever.

KJY, I think we never speak Earth's language well.
We started arguement from a broom, remember?
I'll bring a broom to our grave, so that whenever we see broom, we will obviously reminded by our friendship.

KST, you are the only one besides my sister who I feel like I must take good care of.
Thanks God that I know I'm not a lesbian. =="
But still, I know you will always there when I need you, even though most of the time you are just a joke to us.
(OMG, we are just TOO BAD! XP)

Anyway, I feel so touched to have this two friends.
My very best friends, my other two third.

#20

#20

Don't judge my choice without understanding my reasons.

Ya, continuous from last post, I AM WEIRD, still!
I seldom do things out of people's understanding.
But, once I do, I will be seriously stubborn, no matter what.
If I am very stubborn at one point, please do not stop me.
It might be something very serious to me which you do not know.
It might be non-understandable but yet, it is much more concernable than you think.

To me, everything has their value in different people's heart.
So, please do not JUDGE the VALUE of something of MINE from your view.
Do respect other's by accepting or ignoring (if not acceptable to you).

#19

#19

Do not interrupt me when I am talking to myself.

Remember the post #StayWeird?
Ya, I am very WEIRD!
When I'm talking to myself means I'm doing something more important than talking to people.
Being weird and stupid from people's view doesn't matter to me.
I only concern about things which I would like to concern.
Who cares about your bloody views? Who even bother your sh*tty opinions?
I am who I am.
I speak what I speak.
Mumbling is my way of communicating with another hidden me.

#18

#18

There are no short cuts to places worth going.

I'm preparing for exams these few days.
I understand this philosophy damn well.
A place or a thing worth going or doing is really need 120% of hard work.
Or else, you will never feel the worthy.
Even it is so expensive or pretty hard.
Helps from people is sometimes a distraction cause we will rely on that so OFTEN until we forget our own value on our hard work.

So, start working on!

#17

#17

Before you let someone go, make sure it's a choice you won't regret. Not everything can be undone.

Is that a must that people get regret on their decisions made?
I always heard people saying that, "If I know this earlier..." and feeling regret. Even I myself done it too.
However, about someone, I do not think that it's our choice to let them go and leave our life.
Sometimes, people choose to leave instead of us letting them to go.
If they really feel like leaving, what can we do besides accepting?

He left me without a word, I regret for not telling my gratitudes, my loves, and showing him my excellent performances.
I am scared always nowadays, scared that people will leave me without a word.
When people is leaving my life, I acted like I don't care. But I DO CARE!
I rather crying in my blanket than pulling the person leaving or I've let them go.
They choose the way they wanted it to be, I'll accept and agree.

I let you go, please don't come back to me.
I let you go, please don't make me regret.
I let you go, please bring everything and go.
I let you go, please don't stay in my heart anymore.

为什么就是放不下？

就算是八字没一撇的也放不下，那又何况是置在心里那么久的？
爱上你，是我的错，你不知道的放手，是我不想让你知道的感情。

＃16

#16

Maybe one day we'll find one place where our dreams and reality collide.

Dreams and reality are always in opposite direction.
Sometimes they are even in parallel line.
We as the director of our life would always think of a way to make dream in reality.

What is your dream?
To me, it is very easy.
I want to:
1> travel around with one or two close friends without itinery
2> stay together with my family whenever we have time
3> eat delicious foods everyday
4> get to with someone love me and I love him too.
All these seems reality in life, but we always have obstacle everywhere.
To get through the obstacles, our ups and downs are waiting.

And,
Maybe one day we'll find one place where our dreams and reality collide.

#15

#15

I think a lot, but I don't say much. ~Anne Frank

Thinking is a way of presenting ourselves? I bet so, just it is in the way that people won't know forever.
Unless you are showing it so obviously in your action.
I am a straight forward person who shows you every of my reaction on my facial expression.
So, if I'm showing you a very bad mood face, please get to know that I feel bad!
And don't ever come and interrupt or irritate me at that time if you have no fully confident in making me laugh.

Why people like me would like to show instead of telling since I'm a straight forward person?
It is a way to let you, the person I hate to know automatically that I'm HATING you right now!
So, get loss from my way and stop showing me your bloody face!

当别人没有给你好脸色时，请你不要再用热脸去贴别人的冷屁股。
为自己保有这么一丁点的自尊。
为自己！