考试？

这次一年一度的大考，好像变成了一种很恐怖的思维空间。
当你有idea要读什么，进到那个空间，什么都幻泡了。
太恐怖了。

这曾是多少人想要逃避的空间，而我们还是痴痴的，呆呆的，继续怠泄在这里。
当你想要逃跑，想想你的未来，你的家人对你的期望。
太悲剧了。

考试啊？考前考着考后，一律都在提心胆跳。
当你正想放下心头大石时，下一个大考就来了。
太狗血了吧？

离开了之后

在我们大家的印象里，大学生就是背着大包小包，然后轰轰烈烈的搬进宿舍里头，开始他们的大学生涯。
刚进大学预修的时候，看着朋友们都住在宿舍，有时会很羡慕，有时觉得他们很幸运。
但是住在宿舍的朋友却说，你们能够回家才爽呢。
那时候的我，不太懂他们所谓的“爽”是怎么样的。

现在离开了妈妈，才知道，在家里，什么都有人帮你打理好的那个时候，真的很爽。
重复了几天的宿舍生活，起床上课下课回来冲凉吃饭读书温习睡觉。
日复一日的，开始想念电视机的吵杂声，想念妹妹每次来打搅的烦恼，想念妈妈的碎碎念。
有时想着想着，读书的心境就会改变，看着书桌外的环境，似乎会慢慢的变成我家的庭院。
书本上的文字看着看着，渐渐变得模糊，而始作俑者却是自己的泪水。

手提电脑里播放着的都是以往和家人唱K的金曲。
书本的后方就是与家人多年前一起出游的合照。
杯子里装的都是妈妈一直制止我喝，却不断补货的咖啡。
水壶旁吊着的那个钥匙圈是妹妹和妈妈在我考试期间出游特地买给我的纪念品。
每每看见一件从家里带来的物品，满满都是对家人的思念。
噢，还有桌旁的那盏灯。。。

不知道什么时候开始的，自己开始封闭起来。
除了之前就很好的朋友，其他人似乎都变成会背着自己捅自己一刀的侩子手。
有时候会自己幻想，如果这个朋友背叛我了，那我是不是就是一个人了？
可能是吧。可能不是吧。这件事比摘花瓣还头疼。

宿舍的快乐，永远不比家里的平淡，来得更温暖我心。

考英文 ==”

真的没想到，当初那个在A后面的小减小姐，会让我担心英文成这模样。真是的！气死人了。

这次考MUET，虽然只是speaking test，还是我强项，会把我吓得放下Anatomy书。老实说，当时想说不过就是个band 4，有什么困难啊？现在忽然改了band 5，怎么放心去考呢？

带着教授、学姐和同学旳祝福，让我踏上考试之途吧！

先预祝自己会成功的过关，要不还要再考，就肯定崩溃的！

SATURDAY, 一连三张，老杨，真的要加油了！

Moody ME

Sometimes really feel so bored in studies. But what can I do besides continue that?
So many things are having the same theory. No matter how much you hate, it's still your burden which you have to carry for your entire life.
Therefore, find some entertainment from the things you hate so that somedays it will eventually become your habit and your favourite.

I want to survive and sustain in my life!
我一定会做的比所有人更好！

老杨，你可以的！加油！

Releasing results

My FIS results is finally out.
Everything was going in right way besides my Physics (thou I do not realy care about it, but I still felt something wrong). I thought I did well but it is still a B+. Whatever, this is stated in my results then FINE! I'll just learn how to accept it.

CGPA of 3.6 is between B+ and A-. And this is not as expected. From who I was previously, my mum was not happy with this results even though she just kept quiet and did not reply me anything. Whenever she compared me with my cousins, I know she felt shame on me. But this is what I can do and what I've done. Mum, I did my best in my semester 3, believe it or not.

Dad, I know you will never bother about all this craps. You want me to be what I want to be. My happiness and enjoyment is the most important aspects for you. I appreciate the freedom you gave me. I'll try my best not to shame you in my degree.

Degree, 5 years, I'm fighting for it!

Starting of degree

Oh days past in seconds. I'm graduated from my Foundation and now, I'm in degree! As a new medical student.

On our very first day itself, 3 groups of lecturers went in to the class and had introductory class for each subjects. Great, the next day, we are having 2 lectures only. But 3 hours wasn't like Foundation at all. No extra sounds, no friends around, fully concentration on the presentation slides. My mum will be so glad if she got to know this.

Ok, tomorrow will be last day of our first week. Only 2 lectures, still. Lesser than today, 2 hours only. But I personally think that it will be a more stressful starting for next week of study.

Anyway, I need to go on with my revision now. Bye.

Finally everything has come to an end

Missing my Foundation dudes since yesterday night. I think I might write something for all of you.

Tian, I'll miss you more than you imagine. But I think I miss your jokes more. Ok, not jokes, it's just your style of talking. Understood.

Yogha, I never thought someone could talk so much with me. Seriously, you better on your phone and not hiding it in the drawer anymore. That woman going to scream if she cannot see you in skype.

Alloy, you're the only guy who will come in the door and hug people without any early warning. But still, you're always our heater. If you got no idea where to go after this, come on, we're  waiting for you.

Roshi, you are such a typical laughter doctor. Everyone might forget what you've done but we'll remember the laugh always.

Dila, you are the most initiatived one in our Physics group. Honestly, without you, I just can't imagine what we are going to do.

Audi, you are such a baby. Look like a baby, act like a baby, sometimes even can talk baby language with Tian. Haha, ok, I'm crapping. But you are one that keep everything as nothing, happy go lucky kind.

Hus, you are only woman understand what me and Tian crap all around. Most of the time, you doesn't look like those who can mix up with us and do crazy stuff, but you are that someone.

I'm sort of lazy to write so much, but all of you are so important in outmr Foundation life. Thanks for the present here and thanks for being the one I know.

Let me list down who else I can remember:
Ain, Zati, Dila, Liana, Umaira, Syahirah, Qis, Farhain, Hanis, Husna, Yasmin, Nasuha, Hasbi, Adzmi, Fizi, Syuhaidah, Suhana, Amir, Kimi, Nain, Irfan, Nashriq, Nazim, Tian, Yogha, Audi, Bella, Disha, Kahmaney, Mani, Satis, Rafie, Zayan, Fakhri, Mail, Mira, Aniza, Syuhada, Roshi, Fitrah, Iman, Alloy, Ferris, Thina, Shalini, Sharshini, Yeyah, David, Mirul, Lui, Micx.

Love you all <3

Concentrate!

Finally, all assignments and presentations are gone. Now, let's all concentrate on our HORROR final exams. Go on with every single subjects, no matter you like or not, just do it for the very last time. ��

Enjoy your last semester here. Don't ever waste anytime anymore.

YOU CAN DO IT!

明知道是通往康庄大道的行径，却还是觉得自己一瘸一瘸的走着是很累的。套用一句很滥用的话：走的辛苦的路就是上坡路。

我在上坡！我不想滚下来！��

Dying...

We always say "study smart, play hard", now, it's time to show how smart you've studied for past a semester.

Great, it's only 5 subjects and they kill every singke of my brain cell. My hair is going up and the pimples are growing up too! Such a stress looking. ��

Good luck, peeps. And most important, please do better so that your poor CGPA can be improved at least a little bit. ��
P_R_A_Y_H_A_R_D!