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#27

I'm not as strong & happy as I appear to be.
I'm a mess.

Not everyone can be happy and strong all the time.
Maybe someone, but not me.
Do you think that I can still be strong when the most important person of mine appears to show her concern to outsiders which is more than the one to me?
And you're telling me that I'm the most important part of your life?
You made me felt betrayal and cheated, I'm serious.

If you really love someone, you will never leave them alone on the bed where you bring your blanket to sleep with another one.
If your love open up her eyes and saw no one, and heard something else from oopsite room, what is her feeling?
Or open up the door and saw you sleeping in another guy hand?

Don't think this is a small matter, it hurts.
It is just feeling like a knife tabbing into the heart once and again.

Ya, I'm such a mess. And I'm not strong. Yet, not happy.