回来了，那种很奇怪的感觉又回来了。
我不知道该说些什么，可是那感觉就是很奇妙，好像万蚁锥心，又好像轻如风吹。
言归正传，你们两个的事怎么到我耳里就变得似乎很猥琐。
明明两个相爱的人，热恋期间的肉麻对话，我应该是要觉得恶心，而不是猥琐。
可是那感觉就是改不掉。
你们应该不太会在乎别人的看法吧，毕竟是热恋。
尤其还是两个都是婚姻走出来的人。
选择沉默不代表身边的人都看不出，听不见，感觉不到。
请你们尊重身边每一个人，谢谢。
老杨啊，麻烦你，像个成熟的女人，振作！
那对男女想怎样就由他们吧，反正从头到尾都与你无关。
OMG!!!
It's your birthday again!
Still remember the days in primary school? You were once so quiet.
Maybe because we weren't that close yet.
Just a Hi Bye friend being. But you seemed so friendly, still.
Recalled back in secondary school, we sat together until I argued with you girls. I forgot why.
Anyway, we still got each other back in Form 2. Campfire, secret room, the huge classroom, and Yee Ling.
Form 3, again I left you guys. I thought we were unable to get back that friendship.
Yee Ling went back to her founder. We cried again and again. No rational, no argument, no estrangement.
You wanted to cry every single moment when people talked about her. You smiled at people like nothing happened.
I know, you were controlling your tears, even though there is failure.
It's alright, your tissue is always coming from your left drawer.
We used to knock each other hand whike writing. Left and right handed. What to do?
My dad went with my grandmother. I was tougher than you. At least I hid myself and cry.
I also have my private tissue coming from the right drawer. How caring we were? Ooh~
We were so closed at that time. Stick together in class, in co-curricular, in sports day, wherever in school.
Teachers even told, di mana ada Adeline, di situ ada Hui Shen.
And even our results were so closed, the total marks was only 2~3 marks difference.
SPM results released, again similar results. Pn Norliah was looking at us like twins in school.
You went for dental course, I went for medical course. I guess we were just having resonance.
We were still quite close among the secondary schoolmates.
I think is because we are staying in a stone distance.
After this?
We'll see.
I'll be back to see all of you during my posting.
Wait a second, there's another one and a half year to go.
Then, leave it. Most important is now.
Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINE WONG BE WERN with loves from us!
Ooh~~~ I think this is my very first trip in my degree year.
Selat Panjang in Indonesia, this is a place where I don't even know or I heard before.
Anyway, let's see by photos about this small kampung:
Great! No matter what is that, it just doesn't enter my nrain easily. The things in my brain don't exit easily too. Is this something good? I'm seriously curious about myself. OK, I know, I should've not do that, thinking of him too much until I'm stucked somewhere in my stuffs. Somehow, he is just there, unnoticeable yet unreachable.
Anyway, I AM NOT GOING TO CONTINUE THIS! MY LIFE IS GOING ON!
怎么第一次暗恋人就落得这种下场啊？自作孽不可活。活该！
爱果然不宜轻易说出口。揪出来真难，就像深陷泥沼。
加油，小杨！
好像都没想过自己会着么想念一个人，还是一个怪怪的异性。
我敢肯定这不是爱情，总觉得这只是一个分散脑力的点。
不会坠入情网?哈哈，这是一般最快坠落的人说的话，所以我不要说。
这会儿，我感到无比的思念。
感觉很怪，心里好像有一些......心理的压力。
你是唯一一个在心里住的最久的非亲人类型，朋友除外。
朋友们，他是我心里的负债，复杂的债务。
有人要支持我吗?我心里都不知道了。
加油吧，我会想办法的，想想怎么把他从心里挖出来，清干净。
亲爱的，告诉我，这不是爱情。
我不想要爱情，因为它是最不确定的，最让人失去理智的。
王正羽，我不要你在我心里，也不要你出现打扰我平静。
谢谢你出走了，谢谢你不把我特别化，谢谢你不爱我。
谢谢你，不知道我的心。#埋藏我心 #不要知道
不要吻我，不要抱着我，不要爱我，做我的亲人。
Learn是学习。
学习除了是在学校的那种课本学习，还可以是人生很多不同类型的情况教会我们的不平等教育。
不是所有的事情都得是1+1=2，有时候小小的震撼教育也能使我们的世界更宽广。
当你觉得世界对你是不公平不公正的，那所有即使是对你好的都会是不对的，甚至会因为自己那卑微又偏激的想法而牵累别人或者自己。
累人累己的事情难道是我们想要的吗?
很多人都觉得要坚持自己觉得对的事情，但回头想想，是不是所有坚持下来的事都如我们所愿?
当然不会是，要不世事无绝对从哪来?
接受是学习的第一步，当我们接受别人的批评指教，我们可能当下会不爽觉得为什么都是我错。
这时候，偏激的一面就会捧着大旗，告诉脑袋对方是要对你不利。
可能吧!现在的社会氛围都不太适合相信这个态度。
但，对你好的人，你一定感受得到。
摩羯座是很固执的星座，不幸的是，我是非常典型的摩羯座。
最近发生了些事，让我不得不承认我的固执是带有偏激的。
如果因为我偏激的固执而导致这件事情的失衡，可想而知，我会后悔一辈子。
庆幸的是，我有在适时把头往回看，看到了真正我该看到的那面。
谢谢自己的停顿，谢谢身旁的人对我的容忍，谢谢老友的频频相助。
虽然可能只是微不足道的拍肩，我都很感激。
感恩•我心未亡
我都听见了。
怎么办？听在耳朵里，我都不知道该怎么样反应了。
我的反应重要吗？好像不是。
可以顾一下我的心情吗？也对，情到浓时谁记得我。
房子再大，隔音都不太好，好不？
我是个很单纯的小孩，请不要污染我的思想。
脑袋长这么小一个，别想太多事情了，也轮不到我去想。
有可能隔着十万八千里也有办法偶遇，怎么可能没有办法把身旁的美人儿给XXOO了呢？
那就枉为男人了，不是吗？
Kao Shi La
Kao Shi La
Hen kuai jiu hui feng diao le o
Xian zai you dian bu tai zheng chang le
Kuai dian kao wan la
Wo hen xiang shui jiao arhhhhhhhh
是有些偏疯癫了@@
颤抖的心，有人在乎吗？
你可以对我再狠一点，再为了那个外人对我凶。
我到底是不是你的家人啊？
他到底是你的谁？
是不是我到最后要把钥匙给他，双手奉上我的家？
只会斥责我，有想过我的感受吗？
原来在你眼里，我就是为了一餐跟你闹脾气的人。
很好，太好了。
你怎么那么了解我啊？
算了。累了。
Hey God! How come everyone is leaving me?
When I was young, they left me with aunts. When I was just about to start my youngster life, they left me without a word.
Now, even the little young kid is leaving me. I will be leaving them soon.
Oops, who is leaving who? Erm... OK, I am wrong. Nobody is leaving anymore.
I will miss all of you.
真的没想到，当初那个在A后面的小减小姐，会让我担心英文成这模样。真是的！气死人了。
这次考MUET，虽然只是speaking test，还是我强项，会把我吓得放下Anatomy书。老实说，当时想说不过就是个band 4，有什么困难啊？现在忽然改了band 5，怎么放心去考呢？
带着教授、学姐和同学旳祝福，让我踏上考试之途吧！
先预祝自己会成功的过关，要不还要再考，就肯定崩溃的！
SATURDAY, 一连三张，老杨，真的要加油了！
Sometimes really feel so bored in studies. But what can I do besides continue that?
So many things are having the same theory. No matter how much you hate, it's still your burden which you have to carry for your entire life.
Therefore, find some entertainment from the things you hate so that somedays it will eventually become your habit and your favourite.
I want to survive and sustain in my life!
我一定会做的比所有人更好！
老杨，你可以的！加油！
For the past so many years, I thought the memory will fade or maybe gone. However, when it comes to the same scene, honestly, I don't really know what it means to me. The feeling was awkward. It seems like you are leaving me instead of it. I think I've again bring it as you. It has been with us for 8 years. You and mum fought in it, me and you ate in it, you and sis even slept in it. Therefore, it has ended it's service as you.
I miss you, daddy. It is leaving us by this week. Say goodbye to it. Our dear CR-V is leaving.
WNS 2836.
My FIS results is finally out.
Everything was going in right way besides my Physics (thou I do not realy care about it, but I still felt something wrong). I thought I did well but it is still a B+. Whatever, this is stated in my results then FINE! I'll just learn how to accept it.
CGPA of 3.6 is between B+ and A-. And this is not as expected. From who I was previously, my mum was not happy with this results even though she just kept quiet and did not reply me anything. Whenever she compared me with my cousins, I know she felt shame on me. But this is what I can do and what I've done. Mum, I did my best in my semester 3, believe it or not.
Dad, I know you will never bother about all this craps. You want me to be what I want to be. My happiness and enjoyment is the most important aspects for you. I appreciate the freedom you gave me. I'll try my best not to shame you in my degree.
Degree, 5 years, I'm fighting for it!
Oh days past in seconds. I'm graduated from my Foundation and now, I'm in degree! As a new medical student.
On our very first day itself, 3 groups of lecturers went in to the class and had introductory class for each subjects. Great, the next day, we are having 2 lectures only. But 3 hours wasn't like Foundation at all. No extra sounds, no friends around, fully concentration on the presentation slides. My mum will be so glad if she got to know this.
Ok, tomorrow will be last day of our first week. Only 2 lectures, still. Lesser than today, 2 hours only. But I personally think that it will be a more stressful starting for next week of study.
Anyway, I need to go on with my revision now. Bye.
等 • 一个人 咖啡
阿不思，是这个电影里我觉得最不可思议的角色。为什么呢？我觉得她是一个沉淀后又不会戳破的人。任何咖啡，只要你想要的，她就会给你泡。可是，老板娘特调，却是她心里的一根刺，这么多年都不成功，若是我，可能都会想泡些别的或新的调制了。
老板娘和天使老板那老套的爱情，在最后才看见微弱的希望，看见爱情的威力。虽然是因人而异，但刀大却用他一贯的方式告诉了所有人，爱情，就是你看不见却最有威力的武器。
暴哥金刀嫂的婚姻爱情，其实是很多人一直向往的吵吵闹闹过一辈子。他们那是最难得的平凡相依。
阿拓和李思萤的奇怪的爱情，我们可以看见刀大怪异的想法。香肠和豆花的配搭真的是太妙了。没有办法理解的搭配却往往成了可爱也可笑的情感，真的是一大笑点。阿拓的比基尼造型真的太屌了。
这一部电影比起之前的<那些年，我们一起追的女孩>确实是少了许多的黄牌，但笑点不少，而且更加的贴切。
赞！
期待下一部刀大的电影，谢谢你的电影小说。
"望着身边一对对的情侣，是不是有点心动？"
电话里的WhatsApp忽然冒出闺蜜的一则短讯。
心动？哈哈，确实是有。感情一直是我的地雷区，好像一碰到就会爆裂。或许是身边的长辈婚姻都不曾有提过感情这回事，貌似婚姻和感情不能划上等号。而我，却是一个奢求想要以婚姻为前提的感情的典型摩羯座。敢说摩羯座都是非常现实的，你没办法陪我找到我要的，那你给我滚一旁去。
我很怕，如果我没有办法从失败的感情里走出来，所以选择不曾开始。人家都说，不入虎穴，焉得虎子？不曾踏入感情的世界，又怎么会知道感情一定会失败？可是，现实和电视上的肥皂剧始终是有差别的。麻雀变凤凰？王子变青蛙？拜托，那种骗双鱼的，对摩羯完全是免疫的。摩羯就只会坐着看笑话，对着电视那些粉红泡泡置之不理。
如若有人让我相爱了，请你不要背叛我。
我只有一次的心，用完即丢，只是没有限期。
如若你只是我生命中的过客，请不要方面对我那么好，因为之后所有对我好的人我都会抱以质疑的态度。
我会不再爱了。
我想说
你是在我心上的
可是
我却没胆子告诉你
你是我爱的
你对我很重要
真的真的
我爱的你
现在在哪
你爱的我
已经觉悟
后悔无救
你会回来爱我吗？
#Iwillwaitforyouwithsmile
#Loveisalwaysthereforus
#Iwillalwaysloveyou
#ComebackwhenIamtooweaktofaceallthis
#Don'tmakemefeelweak
再次的面对了离别，我真心的希望你能够好好享受大学这五年。
台湾，一直是我很想踏上的土地，既然你比我更早抵达，那也要代我享受这一切的美好，可别浪费资源也。
出国留学，这也是我一直想要做的事，虽知道对我而言，想想也是奢侈，但还是在你决定后有少少的不爽，因为你又做了我想做的事。
我背上有太多包袱，我不能一走了之，但你，不同，非于常人，你是特别的。你能够做的是所有人对你的期望，是所有人给你的希望，是老天爷赐予你的，那一点谁也抢不走。加油，你行的！
索然的，我会不断的羡慕你，但，同时，也会为你祈祷，谢谢你，让我爱过，让我开心过，也让我体会过，有一个知己在身边的一切趣事。
许愫恬，我还是爱你的，要开心哦。
Missing my Foundation dudes since yesterday night. I think I might write something for all of you.
Tian, I'll miss you more than you imagine. But I think I miss your jokes more. Ok, not jokes, it's just your style of talking. Understood.
Yogha, I never thought someone could talk so much with me. Seriously, you better on your phone and not hiding it in the drawer anymore. That woman going to scream if she cannot see you in skype.
Alloy, you're the only guy who will come in the door and hug people without any early warning. But still, you're always our heater. If you got no idea where to go after this, come on, we're waiting for you.
Roshi, you are such a typical laughter doctor. Everyone might forget what you've done but we'll remember the laugh always.
Dila, you are the most initiatived one in our Physics group. Honestly, without you, I just can't imagine what we are going to do.
Audi, you are such a baby. Look like a baby, act like a baby, sometimes even can talk baby language with Tian. Haha, ok, I'm crapping. But you are one that keep everything as nothing, happy go lucky kind.
Hus, you are only woman understand what me and Tian crap all around. Most of the time, you doesn't look like those who can mix up with us and do crazy stuff, but you are that someone.
I'm sort of lazy to write so much, but all of you are so important in outmr Foundation life. Thanks for the present here and thanks for being the one I know.
Let me list down who else I can remember:
Ain, Zati, Dila, Liana, Umaira, Syahirah, Qis, Farhain, Hanis, Husna, Yasmin, Nasuha, Hasbi, Adzmi, Fizi, Syuhaidah, Suhana, Amir, Kimi, Nain, Irfan, Nashriq, Nazim, Tian, Yogha, Audi, Bella, Disha, Kahmaney, Mani, Satis, Rafie, Zayan, Fakhri, Mail, Mira, Aniza, Syuhada, Roshi, Fitrah, Iman, Alloy, Ferris, Thina, Shalini, Sharshini, Yeyah, David, Mirul, Lui, Micx.
Love you all <3
生活，就是面对着不同的人事物，做出自己想要的种种抉择。但，回想过去，我做出的抉择是我真心想要的或是面对着爱我的人，我必须做出的抉择？
我不知道。
那很重要吗？最重要的是做出的抉择是皆大欢喜的结局。
因为自己心中的欢喜远远不比别人给你那种欢心来的更划算。
Life is about doing your own favorable decisions when facing different people, things, and situation. However, think back, all the decisions I did were my own choices or the one who love me told me to do so?
I don't know.
Is that important? The most important is doing decisions that makes everyone happy with it.
Because your own happiness is not as worthy as the one from people you love.
Finally, all assignments and presentations are gone. Now, let's all concentrate on our HORROR final exams. Go on with every single subjects, no matter you like or not, just do it for the very last time. ��
Enjoy your last semester here. Don't ever waste anytime anymore.
YOU CAN DO IT!
明知道是通往康庄大道的行径，却还是觉得自己一瘸一瘸的走着是很累的。套用一句很滥用的话：走的辛苦的路就是上坡路。
我在上坡！我不想滚下来！��
We always say "study smart, play hard", now, it's time to show how smart you've studied for past a semester.
Great, it's only 5 subjects and they kill every singke of my brain cell. My hair is going up and the pimples are growing up too! Such a stress looking. ��
Good luck, peeps. And most important, please do better so that your poor CGPA can be improved at least a little bit. ��
P_R_A_Y_H_A_R_D!
